Tomorrow I meet with Ayla's dad to talk everything over... to say I'm scared is an understatement. People kept telling me what I should do and what I should say and whether or not I should ask for child support and how much and how often I should let him see her, if at all. People just have so many opinions on what they believe is the right thing to do. I just want to say that I understand you are just trying to help and be kind, but you have to understand that it's my choice.
A lot of people say "just take him to court, they'll figure it out." But why would I do that if he and I agree on what needs to be done? Everyone wants to tell me what to do and while I am a patient woman, my patience is wearing thin. I'm going to do what I believe is right. I'm not asking for your permission or your opinion when I open up to talk about what is going on in my life, I'm just looking for someone to listen.
Listening is such a huge thing! It's the majority of a conversation. Listening and comprehending and understanding things in difference ways. You can hear something different than it was said or you can say something with one intention but have it come out wrong. Stop and listen to what people are saying and how they mean it. Don't twist things because or whatever is going on inside of you. A quote I've heard a few times is. "Are you listening to understand, or listening to form a response?"
I struggle a lot with assuming people are saying things when they aren't. I put words into people and take the opinions I've formed of myself and put it on others.
I'm not going to lie and tell you that my life is awesome and I feel beautiful and I skip to wor every day. Life as a single mom is HARD! There are people who judge me for being young and being single and going out with friends and whatever they can find to put me down, but that isn't every one. Most people don't bare and they're just living their lives.
I had a good friend start a really big fight when I originally didn't even know I had hurt her. We had grown apart and I wasn't thinking anything bad of her or saying mean things, I was just living life. She found herself doing the same thing I do, and put this opinion of herself on me. She thinks people look at her this way but I am not one of them. She is kind and beautiful and has been through a lot. I won't deny that after the fight started, I became very guarded and put up walls to defend myself, but I really would like to fix things with her.
Michelle, I don't know if you read my blogs, but I was never trying to replace you or hurt you. There was a lot of drama, and not just for you, but for me as well. I wasn't trying to push you away but I was taking steps back because some of the things you were doing and saying hurt me a lot. I wasn't trying to do anything except protect myself. You're an amazing girl and I hope everything is going well for you. :)
A lot of people say "just take him to court, they'll figure it out." But why would I do that if he and I agree on what needs to be done? Everyone wants to tell me what to do and while I am a patient woman, my patience is wearing thin. I'm going to do what I believe is right. I'm not asking for your permission or your opinion when I open up to talk about what is going on in my life, I'm just looking for someone to listen.
Listening is such a huge thing! It's the majority of a conversation. Listening and comprehending and understanding things in difference ways. You can hear something different than it was said or you can say something with one intention but have it come out wrong. Stop and listen to what people are saying and how they mean it. Don't twist things because or whatever is going on inside of you. A quote I've heard a few times is. "Are you listening to understand, or listening to form a response?"
I struggle a lot with assuming people are saying things when they aren't. I put words into people and take the opinions I've formed of myself and put it on others.
I'm not going to lie and tell you that my life is awesome and I feel beautiful and I skip to wor every day. Life as a single mom is HARD! There are people who judge me for being young and being single and going out with friends and whatever they can find to put me down, but that isn't every one. Most people don't bare and they're just living their lives.
I had a good friend start a really big fight when I originally didn't even know I had hurt her. We had grown apart and I wasn't thinking anything bad of her or saying mean things, I was just living life. She found herself doing the same thing I do, and put this opinion of herself on me. She thinks people look at her this way but I am not one of them. She is kind and beautiful and has been through a lot. I won't deny that after the fight started, I became very guarded and put up walls to defend myself, but I really would like to fix things with her.
Michelle, I don't know if you read my blogs, but I was never trying to replace you or hurt you. There was a lot of drama, and not just for you, but for me as well. I wasn't trying to push you away but I was taking steps back because some of the things you were doing and saying hurt me a lot. I wasn't trying to do anything except protect myself. You're an amazing girl and I hope everything is going well for you. :)
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